Saturday, March 15, 2003

You wrote in ur sms "aye where do u think we can go from here..erm do u think or prefer us staying platonic?" I think we should be completely honest with each other.

I would say stay like this for as long as possible. I did think of going forward several times before. As u know, I have hardened up alot. Feelings of happiness don't linger long in my heart. Neither do feelings of sadness. I care less. I tried to break down the emotional barrier several times before but the wall simply becomes stronger with each time of heartbreak n disillusion. I can't extend my feelings much, especially with all the uncertainties and fear. The fear of another heartbreak is tremendous.

Moreover, pple and expectations change with time. I'm sure both of us will expect more from each other if we get together. Quarrels will take place and our views of each other will change. Perhaps I am too pessimistic. I am a risk-taker in most aspects of life but not in matters of the heart. Feelings come and go too easily.

Can we stay at this stage for as long as possible? To me, things are fine and happy the way they are. I fear taking the risk and altering things.


Friday, March 14, 2003

I'm feeling exactly the same way as you do. I don't dare to get too close to you but sometimes i just can't help but like you more and more. But I'm so afraid of getting hurt and I don't want you to also. I want to keep you forever...
It's so fatalistic to think that we are going to drift apart in future when the future is not even here. Is it wise to follow the ways of the heart?

Is it possible to remain at this stage forever?

Can we?